Loving Arms
When you shut your eyes after sun is gone,
When you lean your head on my beating chest, You dispel fatigue and calm down to rest To my loving arms in the soothing nest. Nighty guest has come as a guide for dreams. You embrace my waist with your lustful look. I can read that gaze like an open book Getting all the heat on a bound hook. I don't need to hide from your flaming charm I accept allure with an open heart You are mine own self's but the better part, Made of love and tears like the captive art. What Do You See?What do you see when the twilight merged into darkness?
What do you feel when the day has come to an end? Does it push you away onto being so heartless, Or it leads you to dreamful and fearless land? Have you ever just wandered in a maze of the streets? Have you sought for unknown while the city’s asleep? Hollow voices are pointing you to retreats And they knock you off life at one damaging sweep. Do you hide from the dark when the drapes getting drawn, Or you cloak underneath very own phony guise? Are you pondering over the life until dawn, Or just drifting away once you shut tired eyes? Masquerade under garments, under blush and the smile. – Have you felt like yourself is no longer a “self”, Like you’ve willingly entered a groundless trial As if slip-ups reset once the clock struck its twelve? What is inner of yours when the doors closed behind, What’s your mat to fall on after endless fatigue? By invincible force, you remain lucid mind – Is it yesterday’s blur or tomorrow’s intrigue? You dismantle yourself crawling into the starkness, Putting pieces away so they’ll heal and amend. What do you see when the twilight merged into darkness? What do you feel when the day has come to an end? In the DarkMy elixir, my epidemics, my endless hardship of the night
And blinking island of resentment That clung us closer sight to sight. I fight to sweat, I fight to blood, I fight to agony of strain, And by escaping in the dark I find myself revived and slain. The time has passed, the water drained, I dried to war of sleepless nerves, The earth has cracked beneath my feet To swallow up my skin and curves. I switched the sides, from light to dark, from being captive to the free, And eaten by the bits of life, I'm torn apart to better me. Sail AwaySail away. Just sail away from my harbor.
I ain't lighthouse of reverie. You tickle my nerves on a beautiful arbour. I ain't a judge or referee. Love don't mean, love don't mean a thing. It's a melting boredom, fear. Hang my beating heart on metal sling, Don't you risk to interfere. Freedom feeds me, get outta my way! I cat walking on the blade. Free of voices day by day I embody every shade. Red LightsRed lights defusing intended blush.
You let me crush onto all at once. No motive left, just endless months. Tender beats cutting through the walls. Forgotten calls to be stuck in the air. No future sign. Why don't we dare? Wet fingers getting under skin. Life is mean striking in the silence. We don't resist to be tipped off the balance. Invincible cloud hiding potential tension. Cozy mansion created in loud dreams. Subconscious deeds remain, it seems. You’re So RevealingYou’re so revealing that it hurts,
You hit the ground on the wing. But all the vamps and all the flirts Must wait for us until the spring. You’re so revealing that it shocks. You make me stumble over words. And all your captivating talks Migrate to me like humble birds. You’re so revealing that it chokes. I can’t inhale the ardent air. We are in flame, in trap of smokes. Just let us grasp the holly glare. You’re so revealing that it tempts. Let’s run away on endless tour! I sensed deliberate attempts, I got injected with allure. You’re so revealing that it screams. Complete the charm of fickle bliss. You trapped my soul in endless dreams. I beg for longing fervent kiss… Nighty DialogueNighty dialogue, lonely nomad,
Sweetest deal of transformation. Misty castle punish comrade For attempted penetration. Nasty weather, trembling fingers. Was I there? Will I be? Long awaiting, hope that lingers Helping to escape and flee. Hollow woman reaching deadlock, Seeking love and seeking shelter. Lonely heart on crowded crosswalk Drowning into bloody welter. Loud reasons, blinded actions. It's the death and it's the birth - I'm no whole, I am the fractions That are scattered on the earth. Creaking windows, holly fire. Drawn to you in lust and fear. Was I dragged into the mire, To your shady hemisphere? Fading candles, full surrender. I'm beneath, you are above. I'm becoming awfully tender - They unjustly call it love. Broken VaseYou – melancholic pseudo-creature
Took best from God, took worst from evil. I am a doll in need of stitching – You ripped me off. Forget and leave me. My home – polysemantic space, It’s killing faster than phenol. I swallow pride, I stifle grace. You’ve made your entrance and finale. I turned from misery to amour But you elide the sacred spirit By smashing spark with brutal hammer. You call yourself a “man of merit”? You are the blessing and obstruction. I urge to merge your soul with flesh. It was a forcible abduction – I’m hanging in unfair mesh. I’m used to smile, I’m used to jazz, I’m being called a gentle dove. But ever since I’m broken vase Which is in despair and in love. Primordial ChaosI am a ghost, a ghost of my shadows,
Completely lost, lost in its arms. I must have been chosen, chosen to trance, And dance on the scalding podium. You are my shelter, shelter of lusting That does skelter arousing my body. Listen to the beauty, beauty unfading, Beauty spiritual, beauty awaking. Primordial chaos, chaos we beget, Chaos devoid of chaste implication. You poured the water on drought of my soul That’s drowning slowly in depth of temptation. The vale of the darkness – is true revelation, My motivation, inception, rebellion. Rebellious spirit you roughly injected In my veins. Now I am affected. I crave to embody this passion in flesh. Devouring you in the vigorous power. Illusions have vaporized in the wet air. I can be yours, just take a dare. Routine
You claim eternity of love
And swear on the sacred vows. Routine-sinister makes you laugh And leave with after-taste of chouse. "It's not the same!" - collapse has come. No corner left to hide or grieve. Realization looking grum, Reality dictates to leave. From live-in lover to the roomie, From fondling soulmate to the pal. The feel that's magically bloomy Fell into living carnival. You firstly preen yourself for him, And then you preen yourself for others. And all the fuss and all the grim Becomes delirium that smothers. Delusion sweetens at beginning But disappears at the dawn. Routine gets win, it's always winning, Kidnapping vows said and sworn. |
NomadFaceless mirage I've put together
Is lost anew in buried dale. No odor left. No signs of trail. No chance to trace. No evidence. One hundred nights I've lived apart Are back to being shallow. And I am back to being callow, A bird that doesn't fly. I've filled my lungs with scent of yours. I've filled my life with light. But no resistance nor the fight Will chain you to my shack. My nomad, blown by freezing winds, Has traveled far beyond. And by a wave of magic wand I'll bring him back tonight. I've planted seed of sacred love Carried away by moon, And fallen into endless swoon From which I won't elude. I am the stream. You are the valley. I twist through you, your soul. Remember words I fondly troll, Those hastily scribbled words. When We Meet Again
When we meet again,
I will lie on the stone-cold floor lifelessly As the longing has made me cripple Slacking down my pale ripple. When we meet again, You will not recognize my dimples As the smile has forgotten its haven Taken far by unmerciful raven. When we meet again, You will see the shaded brown planets As they began its plummet into chaos, And I surrendered to the glowing pathos. When we meet again, I will vocalize desperation From my lungs filled with yearning, Melancholically withering, burning. When we meet again, After I suffocate in silence, And my gates overgrow with grass, And my mind falls in fuzzy trance. But I know once I touch your skin, After hours, weeks or decades - Once I blissfully whisper your name, I will blaze up with erstwhile flame. The Bird
Ruined and hollow inside
Like a bird near ramshackle church That is chilling on withered birch After endless, exhausting search. Take a breath in a choke of tears. Hungry bird in a lot of pain Loosing wings - nothing else to gain - Crawling slowly. Lived a life in vain. Past has come with a pigeon post. Memories lost in submissive mirage, A collection of feelings, collage That is kept in your serene visage. I’m not lighter than night In escape from the harsh truth. Bird has drained to the dregs the youth Occupied by entreating of ruth. And the noise does no longer exist. It’s complete alienation, the death. Little bird has dissolved in breath, Devastating but soothing breath. We Live To...
I am so cold, I am cold ulcer.
It's now or never. It's the end. To co-exist I need a pulser. To be alive I need a friend. I am alone, I am a stranger To you, to me, to universe. I am becoming real danger, And you became a real curse. We live to feed, we live to fight. We live to flee. We live to f*ck. Whether it's wrong, whether it's right I am no human, I am stuck. I want to live by loving only. Without pitfalls or the twist. Believing this, believing strongly I disappear in the mist. Foggy AuraIt is the smoke that captured my gills -
Irradiation of sweetest bitters. Likewise the most ancient skills, It's both the pleasure and the jitters. I light it slow with grace and attitude Enriching echo of the flick. By gaining just enough of altitude I reach hallucinating peak. My foggy aura is tendering The ground of forgotten dreams. Aurora came, I'm boldly entering My soul. And go beyond extremes. It fills my lungs from top to bottom And paves the way to south, To soothing land and crispy autumn, Towards and outta my mouth. My lips, infused in sacred mist, In quiver whisper invocation. I squeeze the evening in the fist By thanking smoke for my salvation. What doesn’t kill us, makes us strangerMusic in forgetful head –
Algorithms of seclusion. Semi-breathing, semi-dead I dispel the long illusion. Loud rock in headphones Screaming dreadful truth, Pumping veins, cracking bones. Gambled away the roof. Thrown to hollow ground I despise the world. Am I hunter or the hound, Freed or circled? Shadows in the black light – Emotional felony. Grasping nasty fright. I hear soothing melody. This needless fuss Caught hopeless ranger. What doesn’t kill us Makes only stranger. Laws of Gravity
Oh, listen darling, this is abyss
In which I jump, no glancing back. I swim in darkness rather amiss To disappear from the clack. I don't regret, you shouldn't either. We must embrace the dawn of hope And make the misery bit brighter, And crawl in search, and step in grope. We're stuck in space and doomed for death To pray for end in hopeless cavity. And only way to take a breath Is overcome the laws of gravity. We do exist among the ugly Just sipping slowly rays of sun. We can escape to place that's snugly And recreate, and fight, and run! It's two of us in hollow chasm - Let's save our souls and build a boat And be reborn uniting plasm. Take me onboard or let me float? Moonlight
Somehow insensibly you preaching,
Your placid temper gives away. I don’t intentionally pray By begging you or even screeching. The hunger turning inside out The vapours of disordered mind. You call me nice, you call me kind, And I am stuck in growing rout. I have unreasonable feeling - Evaporate or escalate? A lonely Wanderer or Soulmate? I’m in despair, I need healing. Just pull the trigger in a moonlight, In foggy, vivid, devastating Imagination. Penetrating My dusty dreams anew tonight. It needs you, silly. Stop reflecting, It’s just a wanderlust of thoughts. Idealistic world of dots, Affecting you. Affecting me. TwinkleI’ve always been an ardent player,
Accepting challenge is my craft. And let me bet, I’ll take a dare To introduce my living draft. My sleepless life, my sleepless nights, I try the arts in my despair, With classic music and the lights, It’s like a breath of freshing air. My passion lives in every piece I’ve ever made, I’ve ever drawn. I never quit. I never cease From stormy sunset till the dawn. I’m falling fast but rising faster, I chase my dreams with open eyes. I always learn and deeply master To be original and wise. I promised once to be bizarre, To do mistakes, to make my choices. I’ll lighten up the furthest star Until I quieten down my voices. And even though my foreign soul Is still a Stanger on this land, I found the meaning and the goal For which I fight, for which I stand. I’ve kept the powerful pace, Entire me has inner drive. And let me be, let me embrace This magic TWINKLE of the life. |